..letting it all out..

after so long..tsk, tsk.. =)

2005-09-13T23:05:00.000-07:00

hey..=) it's been a long time since we have talked. so much happened na tlga. we're already training for cheering..coz yep..intrams is just aroung the corner.. (what's with the cliche..? hehe) wla lang.

ACET is coming up..i have not studied a bit..

pizza party last saturday..it was astig but yummi was not..hehe. we so made kalat tlga..tsk, tsk.. our prayer? that God keep our feet on the ground..always.

and yah..my close tita isa died last sunday..we're all praying for her family..and we will surely miss her..

gosh..my sched is hectic tlga..everyday training for cheerdance..and shempre..school work. now i know how it feels to be a senior. badtrip..hehe.

breaking news: madonna (the bakla of 3rd year) hit our kenneth on the face..he was like bleeding and his face swelling tlga kanina. lagot siya..he does not know what he put himself into..and hahaha! lagot lang tlga siya sa intrams..

my mind and feeling is so confusing right now. i hate it. i don't know what to think and feel. i have gone through a lot these past few days. a lot of tampos and a lot of fights. i don't know if i just want it to end..or is it because i did not want it to end at all in the first place. all i know..i love my family..and friends so much..and this certain friend i love above all of them..i don't know why..and i'm not sure..but i think it's what i really feel..i hope.

the month after

2005-08-13T17:11:00.000-07:00

after a month..i am still stuck. i wanna get out but i just cannot. i still love you so
much...

i don't know if i should still keep this to myself lang..i am still crippled inside..and my
heart is bursting with love for you..i thought that i would be fine like this..i was
wrong..with a big x-mark. it's so hard...i miss you so much..i can't help but cry every
time i remember you..and how much you loved me then.

ugh..i wanna get you out of my head na..it's really killing me..i still love you so much..

reality bites

2005-07-26T23:00:00.000-07:00

he maybe the only one who understands how much i love him. and righ now, i feel that i am being laughed at. i know my eyes could not hide the happiness that i feel, even if he just takes a quick glance at me. i am not sure if i should feel happy about that, or feel sorry for myself because i am still giving out my love, and it seems that i just can't learn how to stop..even if i know that that love will not be returned.

i looked at him just now..god..i really do love yo so much.

i wish i could find a way to get you out of my head. sometimes i want to think that i need to get mad at you..just so that i would forget you. i know that there is no point for me to be stuck here any longer..but it seems that finding a way out is even harder.

i wish that i find it easy to deal wih myself. i know what i have to do..but i just can't seem to have a head start of it. something is still holding me back. i know what i need to do...pray. =) (hahaha..lord, thanks for always reminding me of your great love..the devil cannot hold me back anymore..) =)

especially for you

2005-07-25T21:05:00.000-07:00

Especially for you

I wanna let you know what I was going through

All the time we were apart I thought of you

You were in my heart

My love never changed

I still feel the same

Especially for you

I wanna tell you I was feeling that way too

And if dreams were wings, you know

I would have flown to you

To be where you are

No matter how far

And now that I'm next to you
No more dreaming about tomorrow

Forget the loneliness and the sorrow

I've got to say It's all because of you

And now we're back together, together

I wanna show you my heart is oh so true

And all the love I have is

Especially for you

Especially for you

I wanna tell you, you mean all the world to me

How I'm certain that our love was meant to be

You changed my life

You showed me the way

And now that I'm next to you

I've waited long enough to find you

I wanna put all the hurt behind you

Oh,And I wanna bring out all the love inside you,Oh

And now we're back together, together

I wanna show you my heart is oh so true

And all the love I have is

Especially for you

You were in my heart My love never changed
No more dreaming about tomorrow

Forget the loneliness and the sorrow

I've got to say It's all because of you

And now we're back together, together

I wanna show you my heart is oh so true

And all the love I have is

Especially for you

laughing out loud

2005-07-25T14:05:00.000-07:00

i saw him a lot this week. no one would understand how happy i was..really. maybe no
one would believe me if i admit to them that unil now..i am still dying inside. it was a
very big space in my heart that was left empty. and at this point, he is the only one that
could fit in that space..my other half.

everytime i see him...god do i still want him back. i know that will never happen. it's a wierd
feeling though because i am still hurt by that thought. but beleive me..it really is fine
with me..i just miss him so much. i want to be his girl and i want to really close to him
everytime we are together.

i realized how scared i was to feel alone and i realized how secured and safe i feel when i
am with him. i was literally scared when i walked along the streests and realized that he
was not holding my hand. (sa arte ko ba nman na toh..) pero un..poor me.

i wish we could still show each other how much we care. we already know nman na we
cannot be together..i just don't want to be deprived of the one i love so much.

i love you GOD! =)

2005-07-20T22:09:00.000-07:00

i'm happy today..i just realized that i really can't live not seeing him everyday.. (or i was just so used to that..) and just to see him is enough..(and demanding ko nman if i want more)..=) i just wish we could be like this all the time..surprisingly..it is fine with me..bsta..happy day..=) and i know pla why..i started my day with a prayer..nice tlga..i love you GOD! =) he never lets me be sad..i know he is always with me..i lift up to you all the praises and glory! =) ang saya saya..=)

waiting in vain

2005-07-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

i saw him today..and ate dinner with him. god..was i happy again. glad i survived. =) i know that i still love him so much. and i know that i am still jealous because his attention isn't mine...but i am still surviving. everytime i see him, i still think that i want him back..but at the same time..i want him to grow for GOD and really have and pursue an intimate love relationship with HIM. i know i am doing the right thing...this may be hard..but hey..this is for GOD.

i miss the way he takes care of me...i miss everything about him. i know that everytime i look at him..i love him more...but i like that..because i love loving him.i know i would still be so much hurt if the time comes that he does not love me anymore..but reality really does bite..

i don't know if i am trying to say that i choose to continue loving him.. may GOD understand and forgive me.. there's nothing wrong with loving someone so much..right?

really..i want to find someone for me..or maybe even find my next love..but i don't know if this is for revenge..(like making him jealous..) or i just miss someone caring for me so much...

dynna?! all these things you can find from the real source of true love..your GOD that you have accepted as your personal LORD and SAVIOR five years ago..you don't have to go looking for someone else..HE will give it to you...in HIS right time..

...hehe..dunno what to write next..haha! =) bsta i know GOD is the strength of my heart..=) i love GOD and him so much..hehehe! =) but i still love GOD above all..that..nothing could change! =)

...intindihin niyo na lang ha..it really is not easy to just fall out of love..=) and i am happy now nman e..=)

i am happy that GOD loves me

2005-07-16T22:53:00.000-07:00

i am GOD's and happy to be HIS. =)
i love you but i love GOD more.
you love me but GOD loves me more.

i am not sad when i am not with you..but you still make me the happiest person in the world for some reasons. it's just easy to resist you now..and i know what to do and what GOD wants me to do..i know it will take long before my love for you will fade..because i really do love you so much. but it's easier to resist you when i have GOD in my life..i just pray everytime the thought of you draws near my mind..and i put GOD first in everything. it really is easier to let go when i know that i am doing this for GOD. i regret for not turning to GOD earlier..but we can't turn back time..i'm just happy that i did na..=)

really..nothing is greater than experiencing HIS love and being in HIS presence. i was happy before..and do not regret that because that was true love..only GOD's love is greater.. =)

a letter for no one

2005-07-13T23:08:00.000-07:00

i can't know everything and i may not know much, but i know i love you
if you ask for advice and i can't give one, i'll just hold your hand
i'll call you every night or probably write to you everyday
but i can't promise to always have much to say
i'll miss you everytime we're not together, and treasure every moment that we have
i won't forget to say goodnight before i sleep, or goodmorning when i wake up
i'll learn to cook for you or even learn to sing your favorite song
i can't do everything though but i'll do everything i can
and if you feel that you don't have anyone with you anymore, look again...i'm there
they say friends come and go...i won't
they say people fall...i guess it's true, coz i fell for you
will you ever fall for me too?
if ever you do, where will we go? where will we end up?
frankly, i don't know...together is all i can guarantee
can't promise you much but a love that will last
can't promise you happiness either, but i'll try to make you smile every once in a while
can't promise to solve all your problems, but i'll hug you if you have one
can't cheer you up everytime, but i'll cry wih you when you're sad
i can't promise to always be around but i'll never be too far
can't even promise to love you forever, but i'll love you with all my heart
can't give you much and i may never be enough, but i'll give you all i have
i may not always say the nicest things but i'll always be true
i would make mistakes someimes but i will make it up to you
can't say that i'll never get mad but i'll always understand
can't give the best advices but i'll always listen
i can't be the perfect girl for you but there's nothing wrong in trying
can't promise to never be afraid but i would try to be brave
but if you don't...it's okay. i'm not expecting you to love me anyway
whether you say yes or no, it really wouldn't matter
coz true love when it's really true...it doesn't need an answer
i won't ask you to love me too or anything...but i would ask for one thing
just let me love you...
that will do.

i miss you

2005-07-12T23:05:00.000-07:00

i miss him so much. i miss the way he hugs me as if i'm his baby. i miss the way he tells me what i have to do. i miss his checking-up-on-me calls. i miss the feel and the soft whisper of his lips on my ear. i miss his attention. i miss his kiss on my hand when a big foot steps on it. i miss his cute wink. i miss him wanting and longing to spend afternoons with me. i miss the way he cares for me so much..it's like he doesn't care how everything else is as long as i am okay. i miss his hand..i miss everything about him..and most especially...i miss being his girl.

i don't know when you will be mine again. i don't know when you will want me back. i don't know how long i will love you. i don't know if i can still stand the pain. ...i don't know if you still love me...

can't think of a title

2005-07-12T22:40:00.000-07:00

i saw him today.. and was very hurt. but i do not want him to see what i really feel inside because i know it will hurt him more. i am still confused..he loves me but he doesn't want to be with me..and doesn't fight for me. why the hell did they say that love conquers all if it did not conquer his guilt of having me in his life?

i really felt sad when i saw him today and the realization that he is doing fine without me really slapped me on the face..hard! i know he loves me..but how does he take to resist me and show me that he is really doing fine? is he really doing fine? or he just tries his best to be an actor and not show me what he really feels inside because he still loves me above all?

here are some thoughts that just don't fit...
--yep, he loves me and i believe him
--he shows me that he is moving on and is doing good in his life
--he knows it hurts me to realize that
--if he loves me, why will he let me be hurt?

--he said once that he will keep up with something as long as they don't take me from him..and if that happens..he will be the one to stop them
--he also said once that he couldn't get enough of me and wants to be with me every second of his life
--he even told me to not worry coz he will never leave me no matter what
--and now..he is the one that is pushing me away..to live my life apart from him
--why did he even assure me and told me something to hold on to when he will not be there to take part of it?

--i love him
--he loves me
--we don't have each other

i know there is no way to have him back..but i couldn't stop loving him. i love him so muh that i am afraid that i might not lose this feeling forever.

sad happy day

2005-07-11T23:11:00.000-07:00

it's my day today but i am not counting. i don't know if that is something to be happy or lonely about. there is not even a point of trying to be happy because i don't have the one thing that gives me happiness and that keeps me going. there really is no point. because from now on..i don't have him.

..till here. too depressed to write.

inside

2005-07-10T08:40:00.000-07:00

i don't know when i could get this heavy feeling off my chest. it's something i want to keep and lose at the same time. it's something that is precious to me..and yet..i want to let go of it becase it's something that is holding me back to face what is ahead for me. so many times, i tell myself that i'm ready..and i think of you. and realize..am not. i can't understand why i am so in to you..and you are someone that is so hard to fall out of.

slowly..i'm missing you so much..but i still try to put things where they should be. although everytime i resist texting you..i am crippled and i wince coz really..it is so hard to.

i am jealous. of the thought that your attention isn't mine anymore. and more jealous that i cannot do anything about it. i am jealous becuase i don't know if i am the first and the last person you think about everyday. i am jealous because i don't know if you still think of texting me..but you just try not to.

i don't want to feel this way. but this thought just hunts me down. it's unexplainable..really. i don't want to think of you everytime i do something. but in everything i do..i still..remember you. you were part of my daily routine for so long. i want..and don't want to get you out of my system. i am so confused. i am only sure of one thing..that i don't want to stop loving you. it's the only thing i could do that you would not get mad at me..coz you wouldn't know what i am feeling anymore.

it hurts..because even in this courageous act of yours of letting me go..i still felt that i loved you even more.
but i guess it's okay for me to feel this way..you wouldn't know anyway.........

inside..i'm crying baby
inside..i'm dying baby
i don't want to let you see
baby what you've done to me
so i'll keep it all inside..

uuuuggggghhhhh!

2005-07-06T00:09:00.000-07:00

it started when i woke up this morning..god my eyes suck..they have like the biggest eye bags ever..and mejo namamaga rin..after some time i realized na it was raining outside. damn i don't have an umbrella so what i brought to school was the big one with like the "J" handle..i arrived to school late..and yep, was all wet. morning pa lang haggard na ako. eco?my quiz that i was not able to study. i got only 13/20..gawsh. english was also kind of tiring..ang dami kasing discussion and shempre lalo nman ung physics. i was so depressed pa today na i really couldn't concentrate..kahit computer ndi ko naintindihan..
i went to lyka's house after dismissal to computerize our rp2 homework. i tried to call home several times to inform them how i was and where i was...no one was picking up. lam niyo un..you want to finish what you are doing because you need it badly..but you also want to go home..knowing that your mum should be worrying bout you right now and you can't understand why the hell no one was answering...badtrip. i left her house ng hindi ko tapos (badtrip nga kasi i don't know how the hell i am going to print this 2mrow!) ..and so depressed coz you have to study pa for calculus ang french tests for the next day. ugh...it's like you don't know how you will let all the things you need to do fit one night or 7hours to be exact.
i can't explain how my day ended. i was hurt, sad, guilty..and yep, still felt harassed. i'm hurt because i think someone forgot to care about me. sad because no one will stay up with me while i suffer here..kahit for moral support..unlike before..mas maganda. guilty..coz i know i don't have to let my anger control me. and harassed..coz until now i'm not yet done with what i have to do..(did this lang..i needed time to breathe and a chance to release what i feel)
i wish i had what i love..maybe i wouldn't have a hard time doing this and handling everything else. i just wish things didn't go this way..my very bad day.

that feeling

2005-07-04T21:46:00.000-07:00

you know that feeling when it's obvious that he is trying to reach out for your hand to fill the spaces in your fingers? and when he finallys has it, he will put it close to his mouth and gently kiss it...yep, butterflies in your stomach..it just makes you love him even more. that feeling when he caringly taps your back for no reason, but makes you feel secured..and makes you love him even more. that feeling when he sends you a text message every now and then, and makes you feel rememberd...everytime!..and makes you love him even more. that feeling when he whispers to your ear that he loves you..it just blows everything away and it's just that moment you can remember for the day. and makes you love him even more. that feeling when he fixes your hair even if he doesn't know how to..it's just a small thing but still, it makes you love him even more.that feeling when you catch him staring at you for no reason and it gives you that strong energy that runs down your spine. you don't know what it is but it makes you love him even more. that feeling when you know that he just can't get over the thought that you were very pretty that day..it's nice to know that for someone, you are the most beautiful girl..and even that thought makes you love him even more.and every action he does, even just the thought of him..it makes you love him even more.you love him so much and you can't have enough of him that all you want to do is to spend every moment together because every moment with each other is precious..even if you already know that you are gonna spend the rest of your lives together...

but now i'm scared..that maybe we will not be able to spend the rest of our lives together..it just scares me to death..when you know that someday..he needs to let go of you..of reasons the two of you could only understand. i don't know when i will lose him. all i know is that that day is coming soon..and every minute..it scares me because i know that i cannot stop the time and that date will pass me with the blink of an eye..before i realize it..the most precious thing in my life is gone..forever.

it hurts to be apart from someone whom you have shared most of your life with. it hurts to be apart form someone whom you have planned your future with. it's like you have pictured your future together..even listed down some stuff you'll buy for your own home..and one day realize that everything you have planned for will not come to reality. it hurts to be apart from someone whom you know still loves you..and really doesn't want to let you go..but he has to.

i do not know where to stand. i want to be with him and spend time with him before our journey reaches it's end. but the more i spend time with him, the more i fall..and the more it will hurt me when we have to part ways.i do not know what to do. even if i'm just waiting for that time to come, i still want to show him that i love him and care for him. but the more i express my true feelings, the more he falls..the more it will hurt him when we have to part ways.

my love, i know that i will love you forever. i will understand you if you need to let go..because i know that you are doing this because of your great love for me. thank you for loving me so much and for always making me feel special. you will always be my one true love. please always think of me..i don't want you to forget me. i know that even if i am willing to let you go, i still believe inside of me that we are for each other..and nothing would ever change that. thank you for everything and remember that i am just by your side always. i love you so much...

and really..every moment was precious..because we didn't get to spend the rest of our lives together..

aftrer ten years..

2005-06-28T22:29:00.000-07:00

omg..it's been like what? years?? haha.. grbe. so hectic tlga and
stressing when there's school. i took lang time now to use the pc..my
new pc! yep..got my own na..and walang nang-aagaw..sarap..=) wla
lang, i'm kind of excited about it..all black kc and it's so pretty..=)
anyway..grbe 1st 3weeks of school..going on four na nga e..well..i'm kind of
doing good so far and shempre proud ako dun noh..=) u know..with
the test results and everything.. not lying --- i'm thankful for my math
teacher..ngaun ko lang tlga naintindihan ang math!!! as in spending
time actually studying it?? yup..ngaun lang tlga..and take note..i'm
kind of enjoying..wla lang..ang saya. my section?? k lang din. at first mejo feeling ko forever kaming lavo
mode..pero it turned out to be so fine nman..we're fond of
kantahan..yeah. saya..=) we're fond rin pala of the panda..well..i
don't know pala if we're fond of it or we hate it..either of the
two..hehehe. and grbe..ang sisipag ng teachers..kya nga forever
kmeng may class.. pati si sir joga and mam casil always present..pero
shempre diba..good for them din nman un..=) mejo fun nman ung
mga teachers nmen..ung mabait pero tipong pinapakinggan??
ganun..and terror na makakausap mo nman..gaun..hehe, and in
fairness hindi boring mga class nila..most of them may mga
activity..if not, magaling mag-handle ng discussion..ung hindi
nagiging boring ung class. wla lang..ang galing =)and oc ko nga pla ngaun..as in complete pa ako with the diary and
everything..gosh tlga..=) studious nga kung baga..=) sana na lang
kpag dumating ung time na puro sayaw na..hindi ako tamarin..well,
try ko tlga..sana..UPCAT!!! i took up tourism and hirm..k lang kya un?? haha..no
choice na..pero i'm fine nman with what i chose and shempre..un na
din ung mga gusto ko..=) gosh! i really need to review na..because of
jel, narealize ko na wala pala akong efforts for the
upcat..kinakabahan na ako..i really want to pass..and shempre sa
diliman diba..aion..sana tlga..=)maaga na daw ang intrams..hope we have enough time to train and
practice..wala lang..=)aion..for now..sana ma-update ko lagi blog ko..mwah! =)happy birthday to mah sis!!! iluvu.. =)

cavite loca =)

2005-05-23T23:53:00.000-07:00

once again..the gang and i went to cavite.. (the gang i talked about in my previous posts) ..we once again made "bulabog" the lao's quiet and peaceful home..haha! =) we went to this great beach and had a fun night swimming..before that pa pala ay beach volleyball..kya nga lang it was dark kya it was hard to see the ball..aion. pero i was kind of hesistant to swim sa beach. it was dark kasi and i can't see na what i would be stepping on. sa may shore lang tuloy kme and feet lang ung nabasa.. (ang arte tlga!) aion..
we ate dinner..sarap ng mga baon and ihaw ni mam lao..(once again..thanks mam!) then we went to the pool..ang ganda nga ng shower room dun e..pang-conyo..mas maganda nman tlga ung pool =) aion.. we told stories and then the rest of the gang came after us..played games..ung forever na nilalaro sa pool?? ung maghahanapan ng piso..hehe..aion. =) then we took a bath and everything and natulog sa beach..it was cold grbe..aion..=) the morning after, we went home na and tried to sleep paden..bsta..sobrang saya tlga..hehe..un nga lang..i got sick! ugh..when i got home na..aion. it was so much fun...sa lahat ng kasama ko..thanks for the great experience and i love you all.. =)
aion lang..we're planning na ung next outing dun is outing ng twothirds..i know it's gunna be so fun.. until the next outing..=)

FEAR FACTOR

2005-05-23T23:36:00.000-07:00

it has been what..days?? haha..i don't know how many days na since i last posted here e..o basta..i was busy.. =)
i attended this camp and fear factor was like their theme..2nd day was the most exciting.. (haha..not in order e..highlights nlang nung camp) it was like the challenge day.. first challenge: i can't remember na the title pero we had to finish this maze..prang.. imagine a ladder made of kawayan?? ganon..it has prang 11steps so there are 10 spaces..gets? aion, one person per space..we will like hold it up hanggang sa waist and suot nmen un until we get to the end of the maze..so like sobrang haba non so ang daming backing and everything kasi hindi magfifit ung ladder and everything..aion. and at the end of the maze..there is this prang log na we had to cross na puro mud and we can't fall kasi there is this mud pit under it..grbe noh?? prang it's only on tv na you see it happen..i never imagined myself na gagawin tlga un in real life..haha.. =)
the 2nd and 3rd challenges were fun din pero grbe kasi ung 4th challenge kya let's jump to that na.. =) aion..4th challenge?? starter muna.. i cried and was so scared (or i just can't think of another term) got it na ba? anyway..we had to walk on carabao shit! grbe tlga..i can't explain the game kasi hindi ko din gets gano..haha! pero bsta, it's like a board game. enclosed kme sa block.. basta prang pic frame na like 25people can fit in..kaya kung san pupunta ung isa, maddrag lahat..gets? ganon..may dice tapos kung ano ung number na lumabas..un ung number of steps na we have to make or number of blocks that we have to pass..bsta ung logic sa board game.. aion. it's like when u land on this one block..mud pit un. and the other, prang bubuhusan kayo ng water..nung mga prang sa firetruck..only smaller..and the other, bubuhusan kayo ng flour..and the last one..caraboa shit..grbe tlga. i really can't take it na nasa water thing pa lang..tumakas na ako sa frame nmen..god! as in umiiyak na ako..grbe nman kasi tlga.. =(
pero shempre the best thing that happened was that we saved souls for the Lord.. =) it's actually fear of the Future.. fear of Expectation..fear of Acceptance.. fear of Responsibility FACTOR... gets?? aion. we had four sessions, one for each fear thing, altar call and lives saved. =)this is a three day camp nga pala from may16-18. and God really used all the counselors and the pastors dun sa 3day camp na un.. =) Glory to God..=)

so-so day =)

2005-05-14T11:39:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to lyka's brother: isaiah =)
ugh..i'm not feeling well today..but i believe nman na m gunna be fine.. =)
i had a great day yesterday..as in..it was so fun..pero mejo napagalitan kasi ako when i got home...hehehe... this morning, nagtext pa si kevin, nagiinvite kila iman pra tumambay.. aion.. i asked permission from my mom diba?? aion..pinagalitan ulet ako..=(
anyway, i'm so excited for next saturday.. nag-iinvite si mam lao sa prang beach resort sa place nila.. share lang.. we always have an outing in cavite..and dahil nandun, prang nagiging host si mam lao..anyway..we went there na twice..the first batch, those who came were the varsity members of maksci..it was so astig tlga..ung next batch nman..(the next year..) more of juniors and sophies ung nagpunta..pro shempre ksma paden si mike, lester and jose..and still, it was real fun.. =) and un nga.. there's a volleyball net pa sa beach na un..and sabi ni mam lao, kung gusto daw nmen..next saturday..if m not wrong, may21 un..=) aion, sana mrmi paring sumama.. exciting! =)
exactly two weeks ago..our church held ung vacation bible school 2005..astig lang coz i'm the music coordinator..and i said nga in my profile na i love kids diba?? and un..i'm kind of teaching music to 5-17 year olds..haha. i know some of them are my age..or older..pero i had most fun rin with ung mga youngest..and haha..ung mga youth..there was even one girl that's part of the youth na from maksci..wla lang..astig =) next time, when i know na how, (hehe..)i'll post pics from that vacation.. anyway...basta, it was so fun.. =)

what's happening?? uhm..none! =)

2005-05-13T11:15:00.000-07:00

gudmrng..=)it's weird na i post messages in my blog ng morning..wala lang.feeling ko weird yun. i'm tired na kasi at night e..hehe..=)
grbe, prang days tlga are so long..as in. wla kasi akong gngwa prati. i wanna get out tlga of this house..kahit mall lang and window shopping..i have no money to shop rin kasi e..hehe. and you know why i like it kpag my pasok?? kasi may baon! ..diba? ugh..i have no money tlga this summer..kawawa nman ako..i stopped na kasi working for my mom coz she's not waking me up..i'm always late tuloy so there's no point pa kung pumasok ako..wala lang. hope tlga may activity ako this summer..actually mejo balak kong mag-gymnastics this summer..mejo weird..pero i want to learn balance..and lahat ng pabali-baligtad!!!! =)
share ko lang..i'm supposed to be in bicol this week. we have this mission kasi in our church in cabacongan bicol..astig nga e..and task ko pa nman dun magturo ng speech and grammar! hahaha..pro ung travel is 14hours..and my god nman..walang signal dun! ..hehe..aion.i really think it's fun pero we don't have money rin kasi..you'll be needing kasi aroung 2500 for the whole trip..and we'll be sleeping sa mga bahay-bahay ng kung sino kasi they don't have nman na mga rest house or something.. as in sobrang rural..sobrang onting families lang tlga..they are selling nga an island for 10k..my mom wants to buy one nga..pero prang no use kasi sobrang layo din..pro grbe din ha..ang ganda ng beach nila dun..saw it na in a picture..they said pa nga na our church could build a prang resthouse dun (ung malaki na tlga ha) for 5k lang..grbe tlga..i don't think na their prices are so low kasi they don't know it's value sa urban na world but because they don't need too much nman tlga..aion..astig lang. ..syang nman..wala ako sa mga picture nila dun..hahahaha! =)
honestly, i'm not looking forward sa mga mangyayari sken today..i know n nman what's gonna happen e..the same thing.. sana makapagpaalam ako today..maghahanap na lang ako ng ksma..kahit sino from school..bsta makalabas..if ever..bsta sana payagan ako..wla lang..=)

2005-05-12T10:38:00.000-07:00

constantly, you're on my mind
think about you all of the time
i can't sleep, no matter what i do
i just keep on thinking 'bout you

..that's what i feel today =)
(wala lang akong masabi...hello?ang aga pa!)
since my blog is new pa lang..here are hundred questions: answered =)

01.Your name? dynna elissa balatazar soriano
02. Hobbies? using the fone, watching tv (wowowee!) ..i'm a having a boring summer..
03. Gender? female
04. Primary school? kiddie centrum..maker of scholars!
05. Height? dunno.not that m ashamed.m just not sure..hehe
06. Horoscope? imma sag (secret: i'm not sure of the spelling kya i made it short..hehe)
07. Secondary school? MakSci
08. Address? P'que
09. Email add? dynna06@yahoo.com
10. Hair? layered by david's salon..la lang..=)
11. Eye colour? black
12. Hair colour? black
13. Right or left handed? right handed
14. Marital status? single
15. Siblings? 3
16. Last 4 digits of your mobile no? 7910
17. When's your Birthday? dec 20 and may 21
18. Do you have a Car? will a family car pass? (sige lang dynna..lusot pa..)
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*Have you...*
21. Tried smoking? eeww
22. Drink alcohol? wine..and some pa kpag outing in cavite=)
23. Been hurt emotionally? yeah
24. Kept a secret from anyone? yup yup
25. Been on stage? yup..saya..=)
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*Favourites*
26. Color? blue, white
27. Food? pizza, bacon...and many pa.hehe =)
29. Number? 11 and 6 (duh?favorit nga diba>>puro an dami nung saken..hahaha!)
30. Cartoons? none? don't watch na maxado.. meteor garden??hahaha...
32. Song? anything that yummi does
33. Movie? undecided.none in particular
34. Subject? social?
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*Right now*
36. Wearing? purple striped shorts and intrams shirt nung grade 5..hehe
37. Hairstyle? held back
38. Looking at? the monitor.
39. Thinking of? what m gunna do for the rest of the day
40. Listening to? the sound of the fan..hehe.and some kids playing around
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*Do you believe in...*
41. Love? of course
42. Faith? yup yup
43. Yourself? yeah!
44. Ghosts? yes
45. Angels? yup
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*In the last 24hrs...*
46. Worn jeans? nope.but i wore a skirt..hehe
47. Cleaned your room? nope
48. Cried? nope
49. Met someone new? ung taxi driver kgbi?hehe
50. Last person I talk to on the phone? lyka..she woke me up this morning!..hehe =====================
*Love life*
51. Do you have a GF/BF? none
52. Have a secret admirer? sana..hehehe.
53. Do you wanna get married? yes of course
54. Do you plan on having kids? a boy and a girl pede na.pro im kinda scared kya pde ring wag..=)
55. How old you wanna be when you getmarried? i wanna be a young mom..mga 26
56. How old you wanna be when you haveyour child? a year after i get married
57. How many kids do you want? 2
58. Would you have kids before marriage? no
59. Do you have a Crush? anyone who can sing and dance well..na cute =)
60. What do you want most in a Relationship? the love??hehe
61. Pink or Black? pink
62. Kiss or hug? kiss sabay hug
63. Summer or winter? winter
64. Sunny or rainy? rainy
65. Chocolate or vanilla? vanilla
66. Hanging out or chillin`? hanging out
67. Music or TV? either
68. Hamburger or Pizza? pizza if it's from yellow cab =)
69. Smile or Laughing? laughing
70. Sleeping or eating? eating
71. Mc Donald's or KFC? ugh..hard to decide..=)
72. Silver or gold? silver
73. Sunset or sunrise? sunset!
74. On phone or in person? in person
75. Diamonds or Pearls? pearls..hehe
76. Adidas or puma? adidas.
77. Band members or models? band members!
78. slank? ?? huh?
79. sneakers or boots? sneakers
80. Jack daniels or Chivas Regal? wine ba to?
81. Citos? ??? huh?
82. clubbing or love music? love music
83. Johnny depp or Brad Pitt? Brad Pitt
84. angelina Jolie or Kate Hudson? Angelina Jolie
85. Kolosal/epic or romantic comedy? romantic comedy
86. sexy/naughty or kind/plain?sexy naughty
83. BMW or Mercedes? BMW
88. incubus or maroon 5? incubus
89. Montreal or Toronto? Toronto (?)
90. long haired or bald? long
91. pop or rock? pop
92. beach or mountain? beach
93. Pepsi or Coke? coke
94. DVD or cinema? watching friendss? DVD..most of the movies, it's nice to watch in a cinema =)
95. nokia or ericsson? nokia..it's the only fone i can use..so confusing ung iba e..=)
96. 311 or hoobastank? not really a fan..heard lang of hoobastank..
97. Asia or America? america.
98. tattoo or piercing? piercing sa ears
99. american idol or canadian idol? american idol..been there..done that..=)
100.asking or answering? answering..it's tiring to think pa of questions e

oh happy day.. =)

2005-05-11T22:49:00.000-07:00

what a day to start my blog..oh happy day..=)
haha..my mom said answered prayer ako today. i assist her kasi with the summer classes and she pays me whenever wala tlga ung assistant niya..the pay isn't that all good..pero at least i have money to spend this summer..=)
the day ended so good rin..prang ended with a kiss..ugh.. =)
okie,okie..til here muna.. =)

525,600 minutes
525,000 moments to share
525,600 minutes
how do you measure, measure a year?
=)